Sunday 10 May 2009

jeritan hati..

hati gw lg galau sekarang.
entah knapa.
uda dr beberapa hari yg lalu selalu aja gini klo tengah malem.
huahhh.

gw cape lihat daftar online friends di facebook dan MSN.
gw cape nunggu notofication terbaru di facebook.
gw cape dgn gerak refleks gw ngetik namanya di facebook.
gw cape berharap.
gw cape mikirin dia. apakabar dia. lagi apa dia. bahagiakah dia.
gw cape terjaga berjam2 online hny untuk melihat namanya online. bahwa dia ada.
gw cape berpikir negatif.
gw cape meratapi keadaan.
gw cape dengerin lagu2 baru yg liriknya makin buat gw merasa bersalah.
gw cape dengan keinginan yg ngegoda gw untuk nyapa dia. untuk sms dia.
gw cape otak sama hati gw ga singkron.
gw error.

di tengah kegalauan gw tiap malam ini, tiba2 gw nemu sebuah lirik lagu yg gw suka pas gw sma.
judul lagunya Slip Out, ini ost film anime Beck gt de.
gw suka sama liriknya.
tiap kali gw baca, rasanya ini gw banget.
kira2 kek gini lah liriknya..

Slip Out
- yukio tanaka -

I don't know since when i changed to such a cold hearted guy
I have to warm this frozen icy lonely heart to thaw
I like being wrapped with warmness more than anything else for sure
I'm gonna make my coming days to be filled with laughter and joy

I let myself down that i'm more cruel than i thoght i would be
I'm just a loser who ends up by caring for my soul
I don't give my heart to no one cause i don't wanna waste my time
I tried to love this lonelyness to slip out of this lonesome hole

Sorrow is what i hate but it's grown my sensations
Regrets taught me how to make any hard decisions
Peace is always by my side but i've never felt in once
Love is not the word only for the sweet romance

Well, i'm scared to deatth
And i'm scared to keep on going on my way
Well, i'm scared to death
And i'll tell myself i'm special till the end

Recalling my torn, broken, aching heart of these long days
And all the memories i wanted to forget for making leaps
Recalling, breaking, aching, crying, making sure to me
And i take all and grin at my future on the way..

huahh.
smoga gw kuat.
ameenn..

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